Senior Spring

senior spring: a quest for happiness, avoiding senioritis, attempting to eat healthy, striving to stay active… and most importantly figuring out what do you do with a BFA in theater
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it’s absolutely crazy, Monday was my last first day of school. Aspects of college have gone by so fast, yet other parts feel so long ago– almost like it wasn’t my life because I’m so far removed from it. While a part of me is terrified of the “real world” I have been told horror stories about, this other part of me is so very ready to graduate and be done with college.

All break I answered the dreaded question about what’s next. I always feel so self conscious answering that question as if people are judging my dreams and aspirations on the spot. There are a lot of paths and ideas that I currently have and frequently discuss with my parents to make sure I’m not crazy. There are a million things I want to do with my life– live in a state that is not new york, live somewhere warm, travel, become a certified group fitness trainer, work for a gym, make my broadway debut, get paid to act, get a masters degree.
I am only 21 and honestly, i think I can accomplish a decent amount of the above. At this moment I am just unsure of the order to go about it.

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It’s the beginning of a new semester, and my last semester and I’ve set up some goals for myself and things I want to change in my last semester– habits I want to instill before the “real world”, and things that will hopefully make me far more functional

become one of those people that exercises in the morning
The reasoning behind this is more than just being cruel to myself. No one can schedule a rehearsal or a meeting at 7AM. If i can get one work out in before school, then its okay if something gets in the way after.

So far I am trying super super hard. Monday I don’t start class until later, so taking “cardio groove” at 9:30 wasn’t a struggle. Tuesday my bed was far too warm and cozy to think of leaving it at 6:15AM. Today I shocked myself and got out of my warm bed at 6:15AM for YOGA… yoga of all exercises. I hate yoga! i hate waking up early! but the combo actually worked– after taking the hour long yoga class I was super warmed up and ready for my 9AM dance class. I’ve also felt really awake all day which is shocking considering I left my apartment before the sun was up. It’s a start!

keep my apartment stocked with healthy foods
if there are fresh, healthy options for snacks, then I will eat these healthy options. I’m starting off small– stocked my fridge with apples, hummus, baby spinach, strawberries and yummy salad dressings. I’ve accepted that I will never feel comfortable cooking, and especially not in my teeny tiny kitchen, but there are simple things I can prepare for myself that are also good for me.

So far I’ve been on top of thinking about all my meals and making good decisions– not just resorting to carb heaven for every single meal. Have lots of fruits and hummus in my fridge has made snacking much easier and guilt free.

stop eating peanut butter out of the jar
it’s simple, but a thoughtful way to change the way I eat. I can eat peanut butter in a sandwich or with veggies all I want, but no more sticking a spoon in there. So far, so good.

actually stay on top of my work
like all college students, I love to procrastinate, and I particularly love to procrastinate by treating myself to broadway shows and spending the night at the gym taking every fitness class offered. I will do everything in my power to do work before it is done, and memorize things well in advanced for class

read more
the stack of New York Magazine currently littering my kitchen counter needs to be read. Also, the growing list of books I’ve wanted to read

and lastly blog
I don’t know why I’m fascinated by blogs, but I have been for awhile. Over winter break I got addicted to following various fitness and food related blogs. Am I particularly oh so brilliant and fascinating that people need to read about my life? Meh.
but at the very least I want to track my senior spring and my plunge into “the real world”. In addition to my self centered reasoning there are other people out there- people who are terrified of their kitchen and raw chicken, people who are obsessed with group fitness class,  people who are addicted to peanut butter, college students trying to stay healthy, and of course musical theater lovers.

to the beginning of the end
end of the beginning.
whatever that means.