The Trilogy

no, not that kind of trilogy.

these boys are releasing a trilogy. Yesterday Billie Joe Armstrong announced that Green Day’s next album is in fact three albums being released on September 24, November 13, and January 15. Let the excitement about new music and possibilities of a tour begin.

This gets me thinking a lot about the future– where I will be when each of these albums comes out? Where will I be listening to these albums– what car will I be driving in, what state will I be living in, where will I be working, what will I be doing? What emotions will be associated and blended into the meaning of these albums?

For me music holds memories– even though I’ve listened to the American Idiot album hundreds of times, it still holds memories of the first time I saw the show almost two years ago, the emotions I was going through at that time, the fact that I was living in my parents apartment, and that the only place I was walking was to and from studio. It reminds me of pure anger and the feeling of rejection, this disgusting low place that I hope I never have to return to.

In the Heights will always remind me of the final weeks of senior year in high school, when the album was first released. It was the last album I listened to in my PT Cruiser, and the first album I listened to in my graduation present– the prius I currently drive. It reminds me of that summer and pangs of homesickness while far away from home.

September 24 I will most likely be living in California, or only a few days away from boarding that plane. This will be the album I listen to while stuck in Los Angeles traffic, in whatever car I am leasing on the West Coast. An album that will be associated with change in my life, about starting the next journey– one about group fitness and well being. An album associated with being far away from home and loved ones, but getting to live with my best friend in a state I have always dreamed of residing in.

November 13 I will have just completed my group fitness training program at Equinox in California. It will almost be time for the vacation to be over, and for me to head back East for thanksgiving and the reality check. This where life starts to get fuzzy and I know a lot less about what is going to happen.

January 15 where will I be? Good question. There is a huge possibility I will be in New York, listening to this album while sitting in the apartment I am currently sitting in, listening to this album on my ipod as I walk around my neighborhood. What will I be doing with my life? Acting? Preparing for grad- School? Auditioning? Something that I don’t even know about now?

It is interesting to think about where I will be in the next 5, 7 and 9 months, how much I don’t know about the future, and how shockingly okay with this I am.
While I sorta knew 5 months ago that I would be here, living in my apartment, hoping I would still be dating my boyfriend, and knew I would be studying theater still, there are still so many little details I never could have imagined about my current life, my current happiness, and the current path I am on.

and maybe it’s better to have no idea where I will be when that third album is released, but to have the assumption that I am sure I will be happy with whatever I am pursuing, and moving towards something that holds meaning to me.