October Intentions

Better late than never, eh?

I posted these intentions on the ‘gram earlier this month, but I still like to take the time to actually sit and write about each intention in a little bit more depth.

Overall this month my intentions are super self-care focused. I haven’t talked about this here yet, but Jeremy and I broke up two weeks ago. I’m sure I’ll write about it more soon, but right now I’m still processing everything. I am adjusting to a new normal, and I know with that it will take me some time to find a new rhythm. It’s hard. And it all feels super new and weird.

SO, now that that’s out of the way… here’s what I want to focus on for the month ahead:

Stay BUSY but not BURNT OUT

The one piece of advice I keep hearing over and over again? Keep yourself busy. I gotta say though, it’s hard. I am trying to find this delicate balance of keeping myself bust with work and friends… but also remembering that fact that I’m still an introvert. Girlfriend still needs some downtime. Plus my job requires me to be both energetic and extroverted. I’m doing my best to keep busy, but while also not burning myself out.

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Be proactive

For the last 8+ years my weekend plans have been pretty predictable: Most often than not Jeremy came into the city for the weekend. I know I need to be better about making plans right now. The truth is: my natural tendency is to be lazy. I hate organizing outtings. BUT I know I feel better (and happier) when I’m spending time with the people I love. Knowing this I’m making a conscious effort to make solid plans with the people in my life.

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Ask for help

Another thing I have realized I suck at. This one is SO hard for me, but I also know is so necessary right now.

I’ve always been pretty proud of myself for how independent I am: I don’t need to go to the bathroom with a hold pack of women. I genuinely enjoy seeing broadway shows alone. And I love love love living alone.

I keep reminding myself that asking for help is NOT a sign of weakness.

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Lead with AHIMSA: Kindness

Ahimsa is one of the Yamas from the Yoga Sutras. Without going into a totally nerdy yoga philosophy lesson, simply put the Yamas along with the Niyamas act as these rules or guidelines for living a life that embodies yoga philosophy. One of the Yamas is Ahimsa, or non-violence.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about ahimsa and how it can be something we practice towards ourselves, not just to hose around us.

This month is all about leading with kindness towards myself. I am striving to be kind, and patient and gentle with myself. Lemme tell you: it’s not easy. But I’m trying.